I’m having one of those ‘draining’ days, the ones where you can feel your emotions pull from your head right through your body and down to your toes. I feel both light-headed and like my head is a paperweight for a Game of Thrones novel. It’s the feeling that you get when everything inconvenient, and everything problematic, and anything that could go wrong, clashes and you zone out just to keep the energy going.
Yep, one of those days.
We all have them, when things are just too much for us to handle, when we’d rather be curled in bed, under the duvet, listening to music to blank out the eternal chatter inside our heads. We take longer to respond to messages and I’m positive that directly correlates to more people messaging you. I have a habit of avoiding messages when I’m like this, and that just increases the anxiety.
I’ve always had an anxiety problem. And even though I’d like to think I’m “cured” per-say of it, I still get days when it’s all just too much.
My vices are strong when I’m like this. I spend too much, thinking it’ll make me happy, I get frustrated with family and friends, I write, thinking it’ll clear my head, until other things take its place like a re-spawning micro-organism.
And 99% of the time, my problem is linked to social media. Too much interaction with the screen and not enough with myself. Too much engaging with the problems of the world and not enough effort in connecting with myself.
One of my favourite bloggers of all time, Carly from thecollegeprepster.com, wrote a post a few years ago that kind of changed things for me. She was so burnt out from work and stress that she pretty much broke down, and took two impromptu days off work, no iPhone, no laptop, no social media, nothing. And it worked wonders. I read it whenever I feel like I’m heading to in the same direction and when I read the post today, I found myself nodding along to the symptoms and problems she was identifying. One thing I constantly take from that piece is that, whether we like it or not, most of us are addicted to social media of some sorts. I can’t go a few minutes without checking Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, Gmail, to name but a few, and it’s causing a real problem. We, as humans, aren’t equipped to handle this kind of over-saturation of information via social media all of the time. It’s affecting how we work, think, and sleep. So my goal, for at least the next 24 hours, is to unplug. No social media, no emails, no checking my phone arbitrarily. No getting involved in group chat issues, no watching videos of the same thing over and over, no venting on Twitter.
I’ll let you know how it goes!
Do you spend too much time on social media, or is it so essential that too much is never enough?